Adrift
Posted by Karla at 7:40am Tuesday, July 15, 2008
My mind has been adrift lately, seemingly tossed by many waves and not knowing where the shore is. Work is going well, but next week the sales rep. I work for goes on vacation for 2 weeks and I’ll be honest, I’m scared to death of handling all of his clients by myself. The truth is, there will be others here who can help me tremendously, but inside my head it feels like I’m all alone. A silly myth that has caused my fears to get out of hand. Why do I still get myself so easily stressed even before I know the situation I truly face?
This morning on the way to work I was listening to a favorite album by David Lanz. He’s a wonderful composer pianist that we all love to listen to. I’ve learned to play a couple of his songs and so has Ashley. We even have autographed books of his music. And this morning as I listened I realized how much I miss playing the piano. Momentarily, I thought, perhaps I can go back to piano lessons. I’d love that. BUT - I know it’s not practical time-wise. Because of my work schedule, I’m only home an hour that Brad isn’t home (some days not even that long) and the piano is in the living room where the television is, so practicing will be a real challenge. Not to mention the fact that I have felt overwhelmed even with what I’m doing now, so why would I even think to add another stress factor? My saner self said, you can start by going back to actually touching the piano once in awhile, then if you are faithful in a little (practicing) you can think further about going back to lessons. So that’s what I’ll do. I’ll try to get my house in order (Ha! Who am I kidding?), get on a routine that will help keep me sane and try to fit in playing for fun on the piano once in awhile.
I just recently checked out a book from the library about handmade journals that was absolutely fabulous if you are a journal keeper. It’s called Making Journals By Hand and is written by Jason Thompson who is a bookbinder and artist by trade. The ideas in the book are incredible. I’ve let my paper journaling go by the wayside, for the most part, since I’ve been blogging. But I think it might be time to pick one back up and start writing, and drawing and finding my creative self.
I hope you all are doing well. I’ve been reading snippets of blogs here and there as I have been able to. Thanks for being my faithful readers!
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On Jul 15, 2008, rapunzel said:
Karla, I was really inspired by the post you did a while back about creative journaling, would love to see more!
On Jul 15, 2008, Karla said:
Rapunzel - I am going to work this week on gathering my scattered supplies and making up a journaling box - filled with my markers, scissors and glue and stuff. I think if it’s handy, I’ll be more likely to use it regularly you know? And the Lord knows, I’ve got plenty of magazines left to cut out of. LOL
On Jul 17, 2008, Ali said:
Surely some accomodation can be made so you can take up the piano again Karla. A tv in another room or perhaps move the piano? Seems pointless to have an instrument if it can’t be used because of the idiot box.
What’s the difference between journalling and scrapbooking?
Ali x
On Jul 17, 2008, Aisling said:
Karla, I know how you feel. For years, I’ve wished I had time to add piano back into my life. Mine sits in the living room too. Some day.
I love the idea of paper journalling, but seem to do so much better with the electronic version. I’d love to be inspired by some posts about yours!
I think you’ll do fine in the work situation. Obviously, your employers have faith in your ability to “hold down the fort.” I hope you can relax and enjoy the short term change of pace in the work environment. It’s nice sometimes to have the routine altered for a little while.
hugs,
Aisling
On Jul 18, 2008, Karla said:
Ali - it’s really unfair of me to lay the blame solely on the television or the other members of my family. The true problem is my own priorities. In fact, there are many evenings where we don’t even watch television, but instead talk or listen to music or work on the computer. I suppose we make time for what we truly think is important. As far as journals vs. scrapbooks - I think of a journal as more of a private book to write, draw and doodle in, maybe adding things to it where a scrapbook is more of something you create to showcase items, mementos and photos for display or sharing purposes. But that’s just my definition.
Aisling - Thanks for the encouragement, as always.